6 Word Saturday

It's time for another installment of 6 Word Saturday that is hosted by Cate over at "Show My Face" .

describe what's going on in your life in...you guessed it....6 words!

So excited , I can't stand it!!!

Read down a couple of posts to se why!

Another angel....

God welcomed another angel into his kingdom today.

There are no words to describe this .....may god bless you!

Birth mom update

I am so excited...i am trying to be level headed about this but i just can't help it!! So far, via email correspondence....

John is 5'9, blonde hair, balding, blue eyes.....his birth mom.....5'3 blonde, blue...dad...5'8 brown hair, brown eyes...waiting to hear if he is balding since that is a big heredity characteristic. The place where she gave birth is about 200 miles north of where John was adopted from. When I asked her about this she said that her mother at the time, since the "mom" was only 16, asked to have the baby taken out of the area....so that could be a possibility too. The name we have on the docuemnt doesn't match the names she gave me...but I haven't seen this document...maybe the name on it has nothing to do with the parents. I sent a picture of John to her and now I am waiting for one from her.....I am excited!!

More to come!

Talk about Freaky Friday!!

As some of you know, I have been searching for my boyfriend's birth parents for a little while now. First the last 2 months though I haven't put as much into it. I intend to get back into it soon though. Saturday John went up to get the mail and there was a returned letter from the city/state he was born that I had sent out to someone awhile ago. No forwarding address. Well...this morning I got an email from someone, it stated: "I gave birth to a son on the same birth date in East Chicago Indiana and he was adopted a few days later." I am freaking excited! I emailed this person back and am awaiting a response from her. How cool would this be? It couldn't come at a better time. It just seems like, even if this is not her, everything is finally falling into place for us. John is 18 days sober now, never felt better, has no desire to drink, has a great, positive attitude, we are so excited to get moved....it would be so awesome if this was really his birth mother. I had to call my one of my closest friends this morning at 730 to tell her about it, i was so freaking pumped!! (thank goodness she was up) I will keep you all updated.

P.S. John's rehab has been delayed to to the weather...but he is still doing wonderful!!!

Think Thin Thursday

Time again for Think Thin Thursday...check out Bridgette for Mr Linky...sign it and join us in this major feat!!

This weeks task?

What is your motivation?

My motivation is to be healthy and comfortable. I have noticed that since putting on this extra "fluff" that i get winded faster and out of breath quicker...not fun. I have also noticed that my once normal BP is getting alitte bit higher...not good.

No weight loss for me this past week...maintained the same, but didn't overinduldge either...until yesterday when I discovered Loaded Baked Potato Lays Chips....and Jalapeno Cheese dip.....YUM.....

Winter Wonderland Wednesday!!

Some random pics around my house....i am going to venture out to the store here shortly...maybe add some more cool pics from that!!

O.H.I.O....WW

Here is our lovely snowstorm.....

This is me attempting to get to work...becasue by God we close for NOTHING...needless to say I am not there!! haha

Award time....& 4th post today ~

I was honored to reveived this unique award from Wife O Riley...thank you so much!~ Check out her blog...she is awesome!!

Luckily I am in a "nice" mood today or I wouldn't be able to fullfill the first rule that goes along with this award...

The set of rules...
1. Say a nice thing to a man in your life.
I told John today that I loved him and that I am proud of him...14th day of sobriety!!!

2. List at least six ways you measure success in your life.
1) my kids accomplishments
2) money in the bank
3) a complete work week
4) a happy family

5) "I love you"s
6) encouragement
7) True friends

3. Assign five other worthy blogs

Kim

Lori

Kori

Amy

Aubrey

Have fun guys!!!

My First Born

My First Born!
Sandy over at the Adams Family did this and I thought I would join! It's about my first born!

1. Were you married at the time? Yes!

2. What were your reactions when you found out you were pregnant? My world cam to a screeching halt. I was 21, partying, and NOT ready for a child by any means...however (before you all think, "oh how awful)..I soon became excited and ended up loving being pregnant!
3. How old were you? 21
4. How did you find out? Well....i told you I was 21...and in my partying stage, right? You see....I liked....loved Tequila...loved it. Drank it more than I should have at times. Well...one night I had A shot...ONE shot, ran to the bathroom and immediately got sick. I didn't know what could have been wrong...i never got sick on that. Lo & behold the next day I took a pregnancy test....POSITIVE!!!
5. Who did you tell first? Our friends Chad and Stacy. They were there when I took the test. Then my sister and parents
6. Did you want to find out the sex? heck yea...i can't wait for anything!!
7. Due date? Feb 17, 1995
8. Did you deliver late or on time? Late, Feb 22, 1995.
9. Did you have morning sickness? Not at all
10. What did you crave? Lemon Heads, the candy...then later like the last 2 months Adornetto's Salads (local pizza place here)
11. Who/what irritated you the most? I got hot very easy...but I really liked being pregnant!
12. What was your first child's sex? A girl!
13. How many pounds did you gain throughout pregnancy? omg....alot...like 60? lol
14. Did you have any complications during pregnancy? nope, not until i went to have her.
15. Where did you give birth? Good Sam Zanesville, Ohio.
16. How many hours were you in labor? about 24 hours....but only had back labor
17. Who drove you to the hospital? my husband at the time!
18. Who watched? Just him!
19. Was it natural or c-section? C Section.
20. Did you take medication to ease the pain? after awhile i got an epidural so that I could rest, they knew that it would be morning before the Dr would come in and take her C section. I wouldn't dilate...
21. How much did your child weigh? 7lbs. 9oz.
22. Did your child have any complications? None! Thank God!
23. What did you name her? Emily Dawn
24. How old is your first born today? 13 Soon to be 14! Scary!!!

ALERT THE MEDIA!!!!

Doing the happy dance!!!

I have reached 50 followers today!!! No time for a speech, but thank all of all you who read my "heartwarming" blog!!

There is more to come...this is my 86th post...almost to 100!!!

Tuesday Tribute

Hosted by Jay and Deb

Let's see.....who will I tribute this post to? I am not feeling real creative or much into writing this week. I am busy trying to get things ready to move, John leaves Thursday, the kids came home yesterday from their dad's, that always takes a day or two to get adjusted.....just a hectic week...snowing again, can't get up the driveway to the new house....blah blah blah....

Anywho.....onto Tuesday Tribute...

Have you seen the new Kraft Macaroni and Cheese crackers? The White cheddar are awesome!!!!

How is that for a lame Tuesday Tribute....I promise I will really put more thought into it next week!! In the meantime...go to the store and get some of these....you won't regret it!

6 Word Saturday

Playing with Cate over at Show My Face and her 6 word Saturday game:

I love Saturdays when not working!!!

Go see Cate!!

A Meme A Meme!!!

Before I do this....a meme is: noun - a cultural item that is transmitted by repetition in a manner analogous to the biological transmission of genes.

There you have it...straight from old Webster himself!!

Sandy over at the Adams Family tagged me in a meme...they are fun and it is Friday .....so why not? Hope you enjoy!!

Rules: Post the list on your profile replacing my answers with yours. Tag 25...(that is alittle extreme..so tag whoever or however many you want) people to do the same. Don't forget to Tag me back.If I tagged YOU, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? I was named after my great grandmother Angelina...my name is actually Angeline

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Tuesday...was justa good day to cry though...not necessarily sad tears.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I used to have really pretty ahndwriting but not so much anymore...it all depends on the kinds of pen i am using. Right now I am hooked on Shaprie pens...love them!!

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Spiced Pork you can't get it everywhere. A local Meat processing place here makes it.....yummmy!

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yes, I have two daughters! Emily soon to be 14!!! Gosh i am getting old....and Macy just turned 9!

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Somedays I would other days I would run like the wind from myself!! lol

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? Nope never!! :)

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Heck yeah!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Fruity Pebbles....the sugary the better!

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? No i don't but I don't know why because I eventually have to untie them to put them back on....

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? believe it or not I ma not a huge ice crema fan...but anything with chocolate and peanut butter is my choice

13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Their teeth/smile.

14. RED OR PINK? Definelty red...i am not a pink person at all!

15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? My weight...but I am happy...so if I have to be alittle fluffy oh well!! lol

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? my grandparents and my sister and her family

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?? Of course, i am nosy like that!! lol

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? black dress pants and black shoes...wish I could wear my comfy pants at all times!

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? My fingers typing om my keyboard

20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Orange...i just love orange!

21. FAVORITE SMELLS? anything that is homey...like fresh baked apple pie, pears, cinnamon

22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Some weirdo woman that I couldn't understand because she obviously had the phone IN her mouth or a mouth full of crap...people irritate me on the phone sometimes can you tell?

23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS NOTE? Absolutely...she is a lovely blogger!

24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Football!

25. HAIR COLOR? Natural? Dark brown with gray highlights...currently has some blonde highlights in it....soon to be auburn, after work tonight!! yippee!! long overdue!

26. EYE COLOR? Blue...greenish blue if i am upset or mad

27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? sometimes....i should wear them all the time

28. FAVORITE FOOD? do I really have to limit this to just one? I guess I would pick Mexican...then Seafood...then....this could go on and on!! lol

29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? I loke both but my favorite would be Happy endings.

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Something on Lifetime while I was falling asleep i am sure. We are going to watch Step Brothers this weekend though!

31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? black with little white polka dots

32. SUMMER OR WINTER? I love the snow, but fall is my favorite!

33. HUGS OR KISSES? {{{HUGS}}}

34. FAVORITE DESSERT? Spice cake with white icing!!!

35. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Kimmy poo.....lol...she has enought ime on her hands now! :)

36. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? i dare you not respond!! lol

37. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? lol....I forget the name of it, I jsut started it, a new one by Meledie Carlson....i will update you on this...

38. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Staples...i am at work, the one at home is just plain gray.

39. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? Real Housewives of Orange County.

40. FAVORITE SOUND(S)? my kids and glass breaking...but not the kids breaking the glass!!

41. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Rolling Stones of course...they named a song after me!! lol

42. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? California to see my sister and her family.

43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? I used to be able to tie a cherry stem with my tongue...that was in my younger, bar hopping, partying days...i am sure i can't do that anymore...

44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Zanesville, Ohio.

45. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Every one's!

46. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER? I met John about 18-19 years ago...but have only been together for alittle over a year....long year! lol

Now...it is your turn....i will tag a few and whoever else wants to do it copy them and do it...let me know though so that I can read your answers!!

Lori

Kim

Amy

Cate

Mrs S

Cammie

April

Anyone else who wants to play feel free, the more the merrier!

Task and a Przie

Ok...i need your help. I work for a staffing company and we give out weekly promotions to our customers or companies that we are trying to make our customers. Each office needs to come up with 10 catchy promotions to go along with an item that you can find for under $1.00....i will give you some examples.

• Nails....we put some nails in a snack size Ziploc and added a label that read: Need a staffing agency that is tough as nails? Tough times call for tougher staffing professionals.....
• Pickles....No Matter what kind of staffing pickle you find yourself in, we have a Dilly of a solution! Give us a call today
• Grab and go pack Fruit Loops...We Jump Through Hoops To Keep From Sending You Fruit Loops! With Our Proven Interview Process, Our Prove It Testing, Background Screening and Drug Testing ...The Only Fruit Loop You Will Get, From Mancan Will Be For Breakfast…..Give Us A Call Today-

You get the idea? Our company name is Mancan...

So....if you can come up with any clever sayings and you hav the best one....i will give away a $25.00 WalMart gift card to the person who has the best catchy phrases!! Just leave me a comment with the phrase, i will jot them all down and I will announce a winner on Monday January 26th!!

Can't wait to see what you come up with!!

This and That Thursday

I am still here. I have been busy trying to find a place in the school district where my daughter needs to be next year. Things aren't looking good for the district that she goes to now and open enrollment will probably be really high where I want her to go...so my best bet? Move into the district.

So last weekend the girls and I drove around to look at some places. We found one that we liked and called about it. We drove by it, took a picture of it, set up an appointment to see it. I got a call the next day that it had been rented. Bummed because from what I had seen so far, I liked it.

So Wednesday I get a call that it fell through and it is available. So we set an appointment to meet the owner at 530pm. Get there a little early pull up in the driveway, wait, wait, wait...it is now 540pm so I call the owners house to see if i had gotten the days mixed up, she said no that he had headed over there that he was in PT Cruiser...i saw a PT Cruiser go by....guess what???? Yep, we were at the wrong house....sitting in someone else's driveway....took pics of someone else's house......"liked" someone else's house!! So we trek on down around the corner to the 'real' house.

At first I was thinking to myself....but I like the other one better.....BUT....once we got in there....I love it! It is so unique and has such character I can't even begin to describe it to you...don't worry, I won't bore you with that...you will have to wait for pictures....of the RIGHT house this time!! lol

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John went to the VA on Tuesday. Was there all day long...hurry up and wait all day. He had his blood work done which revealed that there has been some liver damage already...so all the more reason to go through this rehab. He leaves on Thursday January 29 to go to the rehab. His attitude is still great, still has not had a drink in 9 days today. He is looking forward to going to thru the program, getting out getting a job....and his license and getting on with life....sober!! So far he hasn't let me down!!

Things appear to be looking up for us right now...i/ we feel good, we are staying positive about John, my kids are happy, I am happy....life is good right now!!

Interview with Zander and Me

Zander's Mom from Zander and Me was interviewed by one of her fellow blogger friends and I thought it would be fun to be interviewed. I interview people all day long and get tired of asking the questions....so this could be fun!!

1. On your very first post you said your life could be a movie on Lifetime. What would you call the movie and who would you want to play you?

That is a good one. I would probably call the movie. "Wow...you did what?" and the actress I would want to play "yours truly" would be....Cameron Diaz....just because I love her! lol She would have to be able to portray a confused alot of the time, at once time deceiving and ashamed, trying to turn her life around, awesome mom and ultimately a good girl! I think she could do all of those things!!



2. Congratulations on your house. How is he decorating going? Do you have more pictures to share?

Funny you should ask... my family member that read my blog will get a kick out of this for sure!! I have probably moved enough times to fill up several picture albums!! Fun? NO! Would I like to stay in one place....SURE!! I thought this house would be it for awhile...i know i say that everytime...but...it smells like shit all the time! I am talking real sewage...no pun intended. I can't stand it. The owners have been down and told us that there is not a problem...ok, when you have to smell crap all the time there is a problem! BUT, my youngest daughter needs to change school districts for the next school year....so we need to move anyway...so how about I get back to you on this one? lol (no smart comments from my family please... :))



3. I notice that you talk a lot about how wonderful your parents are and how great your childhood was - another thing you and I have in common. What is one of your favorite memories from childhood?

wow...that is a tough one. I remember so much of my childhood and so much of it is good. As far as my immediate family, mom, dad etc i would have to say our summer vacations to Myrtle Beach. We went there alot, so much so that when i go there I know my way around and how to get to certain places without asking. Every time we went there my dad would ALWAYS get lost in the same spot on the way there, it wasn't funny at the time because he would get mad since he was irritable anyway from driving all night...but now we can laugh about it.

Another great memory is my grandparents...they were so much a part of our lives in everything we did. The closeness that my family had (has) was irreplaceable...and when they passed on alot of things changed. Not a day goes by that I don't think of and miss them. They were definitely the "rock" of our family!



4. Are you and the kids planning on any trips this year? If you are choosing to stay close to home, like Zander and me, what things do you all do for fun in the summer?

I would love to take my kids to the ocean....but I am not sure that is feasible this year for obvious economic reasons and I am not the "best" saver of money...again...no comments from the peanut gallery....so, we will probably do a Zoo day, amusement park day, things close to home. But if anyone would like to donate to the Ocean Fund feel free to email me!! :)



5. We’re both awesome single moms, obviously! I see a lot of myself in Zander in the things he says and in his actions – some good, some not so good. Your girls are older than Zander so I’m wondering if the things they say and do remind you a lot of you at their age? If so, what are they?

OMG...my oldest is just as stubborn and hard headed as I am. Always has to have the last word and will argue until the cows come home....she is alot like me...I sucked my thumb and she did too, (i still catch her with it in her mouth while she is sleeping sometimes), she is very nosey and likes gossip...like me. Always wants to be in on the conversation and doesn't want to miss a thing!

The youngest on the other hand is very independent, very high strung, which are not qualities that I have...but she is also very loving, and helpful which I would like to think that she gets from me. She is a picker like myself, if something needs picked i will pick at it until it is gone. She eats like I do...pretty much anything! lol

So that wraps up my interview....that was fun!! Nice to be asked the questions once instead of me asking them all the time. If you would like to be interviewed just leave me a comment stating so and I will email you your questions. I will try to get them to you today but can't make any promises.....I need to get some work done here sometime!!

Great questions!

Not Me Monday

Check out McKmama and ..... Time again for Not Me Monday!!!!

1. I did not wish for a snow day from work on Thursday!!! That would mean that I am not grateful for my job...I am but come on...can we get a snow day?
2. I did not consider washing my car in this gosh awful cold weather...I can't stand the salt on my car!!
3. I did not blow off my whole weekend.....and it felt oh so good!!
4. I did not smile to myself last night before I laid down thinking about having the bed all to myself...no 9 year old kicking and poking and prodding.... :)
5. I most certainly did not only do about 3 loads of laundry this weekend when I should have done about 10??? lol
6. And once again...if anyone asks...I did NOT do this at work today!!

Six Word Saturday

Playing Six Word Saturday, hosted by Call Me Cate, over at Show My Face.

Need to clean this darn house!

So...that is what Iwill be doing today if anyone is lkooking for me!!

Have a great Saturday!

Random things....

I really don't have anything to post about...so this is going to be so Random...feel free to comment ona ny of the items that catch your attention!! lol

• Have you ever really listened to the words to Amazing Grace? Makes me cry everytime I listen to it....
• It is freaking freezing out today and I HATE it!!
• I love the snow!
• Can't wait to get home and spend a warm evening at home with the girls!!
• This recession sucks!!!
• My feet are freezing today and won't get warm!
• I would have crapped if I was on that plane yesterday that was landed ever so swiftly in the Hudson.
• Is it 5 o'clock yet
• I am sick of drinking water
• Why are some people so freaking negative?
• The Wii is hurting my elbow...should I be concerned?
• Did i mention it is freaking cold here today?
• I hate what my car looks like with salt all over it
• Nice quiet weekend at home...LOVE IT!

I could go on and on...but i don't want to bore anyone.....have a great Friday!

Advice...beware it is a long one!

Warning....this is a long post...but i need the advice of people who are not "partial" to either party here...

My ex boyfriend/ boyfriend...whatever, who I have blogged about in a round about way before...the one I was happy to get rid of...John....left Sunday.
Getting him to leave was a hard thing for me to do. I had mixed feelings about it, but knew it was the right thing to do.....and still believe I did the right thing.

To understand this whole thing i need to give you some background.
John was adopted as a baby. Has never met his birth parents, can't find them, didn't have the most loving adoptive parents, no kisses good night or I love you's....which I can't imagine. He left for the Marines the day after high school graduation, completed 8 years. When he got out he stayed in Virginia for several years and worked as a warehouse manager for a medical supply company. He decided to come back to Ohio...couldn't find a job, resorted to bartending. Began drinking pretty heavily. Ended up with a DUI. Continued drinking.....etc.
He and I reconnected, (I knew him 18 years ago, actually I took him to the recruiters office when he left for the Marines) he ended coming up to the city where I live and we hit it off great. He loved my girls, he was fun and they loved him.

I noticed that he drank alot...but I did not notice that he couldn't go without the beer. When it hit me that he couldn't go with out it. I begged him to quit for fear he would drink himself to death, not because he is abusive when drinking, not to me or the kids, none whatsoever, simply because he was bound kill himself. He quit, went thru DT's, drank NA, slowly started to drink again, started to get back up to his normal drinking routine. I started harping again, he would slow down, start again, etc. I finally got to the point that if he didn't want to help himself, neither did I.

Fast forward to Sunday. I dropped him off at a friends house because I had made up my mind I was completely done. I wasn't going to live with an alcoholic who didn't want to help themselves. My kids didn't need to live with it either. Tuesday morning I got a phone call from his son's mother telling me that John was in jail for disorderly conduct, he had gotten in a fight with someone, somewhere, (which is not John at all, he just doesn't fight), So, I went to work Tuesday, called the VA, got information on an inpatient rehabilitation in a city about 1 1/2 hours away. I went to get him from jail after he went to court, (he got a fine and court costs), he asked if he could come home. I said, "No, this is what you are going to do"....told him about the rehab, and that I was taking him to his parents house to stay until he could leave for the rehab...he did not argue about it one time, didn't hesitate...said "ok"......
So, he is at his parents, goes to have his lab work done Tuesday and goes to rehab the following week.

Now, my purpose for this post...am I doing the right thing by sticking by his side during this?
John's positive's: he is very loving, has a big heart, treats me and the kids wonderful, wants a family, wants to be "better", he is helpful around the house, he is fun, he is funny, he is honest, he keeps me honest, he is supportive of me, he gets me, he loves me more than anything and needs me.
John's downfall's: he now has no job due to all of the events that have taken place, had never gotten his driver's license from his DUI 10 years ago, so he doesn't drive, (which I now think is because he knew he would drink and drive again), has a major battle to fight in getting sober.

His attitude is great right now, he wants to do this, says he wishes he would have never picked up the first beer ever, he is excited about going to this rehab and starting a new life, he is talking about going to school, about working, about getting his license, about being a family and saving money and going on trips.....
I love John, would love to be with John without the beer... did I feel trapped by him? YES, while drinking he was still a nice guy, but he was living in a "numb" state all the time. That may be fine for the one drinking but it is hell for the one not drinking. To him bills weren't an issue, money, jobs, etc...that was all clouded by his drinking while those things remained very real to me, the one who wasn't able to suffocate them with beer...so sure, I was frustrated...i felt like, 'hey, you don't care enough about yourself or this family to stop drinking...then i don't care about you", I was tired of fighting a battle I wasn't going to win.

Fast forward to today.
John is staying at his parents, (not by choice, he would much rather be at home with us), I am not letting him come home since I feel like,

1. what is that showing the kids? Sure they miss him being around, but they also don't want the drinking
2. I am afraid he won't take me serious and think that once he gets back here he will think that he has won.
3. I want him to seriously think about what he is about to go through and about what he is missing out on by choosing the alcohol over us once again.

I know that if it wasn't for the drinking that John would be a great man. When he is sober he wants to provide, he wants to be a family, he wants to take care of us...is giving him the chance to show us that he can do it so bad? He knows he can't come back until he does this, the kids know that he isn't coming back until he does this....why not give him a chance? I can live with a recovered/recovering alcoholic...I can't live with an alcoholic who doesn't want help. He knows that if he doesn't do this we are gone. He knows if he wants to be a family that this is the only way it is going to happen...he WANTS to do this and has finally admitted that he needs help.

He knows that he has to do this for HIM first...and he says he is...
We do watch Intervention, and there are many times John has cried thru it...I truly believe he wants to quit.

Am I doing the right thing?

483 ounces

Happy Think Thin Thursday!!

I have drank 483 ounces of water since last Thursday!!

My goal for this week is portion control. Instead of 4 bowls of cereal for supper, I will eat 2....lol. I am going to keep up with the water too...

Great job to everyone and keep up the great work!!

(oh yea...check out the ticker too up on my sidebar...that's right ...-2 lbs!!)

Special Award

My great friend Kim atI Know, Right?! gave me this award. I am so proud of her!! Since I gave her mini blog lesson last week she has really taken off!! If you haven't checked her out you should do so, she is funny, witty and sincere!! She gave out an award when she hit 10 followers and now she has 12!!! Way to go Kim!!!

This award is given to you in appreciation of your lovely and witty comments and for always knowing the right thing to say at the right time....

I am to pass this on to 10 people who make me feel special. Of course you all do that...so I will pick ten of you and if you like the award feel free to take it and pass it around!

Lori

Sandy

Jay

Deb

Mrs S

Cate

YaYa

Kim

Wife O Riley

Kori

Tuesday Tribute

A Jay and Deb Production.

Tuesday Tibute

To my kids

I don't even know how to begin about my wonderful kids. When I am sad you make me happy, when i am mad you make me calm, when I am scared and think that know one cares all I have to do it look at you. You are my mornings and my nights, you are the reason that I am who I am.

You are the strongest girls I know. You have taught me so much.

It hasn't been an easy life, God knows. We have had our fair share of heartaches, tough times, arguments, outbursts, and tears. But the fun times and our times together far outweigh all the bad. Just to hear you laugh and see you smile is all I need to erase all of that. You are the best daughters a mom could ask for and I promise you this....it will only get better from here!

Along the road of happiness we have had to take detours, hit rocky patches and even gotten stuck in the dirt....but we are on our way down hill now. Life is what we make of it...and by God from here on out we are going to make it and we are going to have fun doing it!!

I love you girls you are my everything...you are my life!!!

Not Me Monday

It is time for Not Me Monday....by: McKmama...and if you wnat to know more about her and the crew check out this post...wonderfully written by McKmama herself!!

• I did not sit down at the dinner table and have a wonderful dinner with just the girls and I Sunday night.....and if I did it was great!
• I did not have to threaten everything under the moon to get my ex to move out Sunday....if I did it would have been such a relief.
• I did not take up an offer from my mom and dad to move in with them for a couple of months...I would only be helping myself out as wel as helping them out if I did that.
• I did not drink 32 ounces of whater everyday since Thursday this week...if I have...i am almost home free for my goal at Think Thin Thursday!! WHOO HOO
• I did not cry over a Lifetime movie today while watching it...how sappy would that be.
• I did not complain that we did not have snowstorm like we were supposed to....how childish!

HAPPY NOT ME MONDAY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!

Off for the weekend!

Emotional roller coaster this weekend...i will spare you all of the details...just wanted to you to know I still read everyone's blogs this weekend and will be here for Not Me Monday....God knows I should have enough of those tomorrow!! Off to watch Desperate Housewives....and to bed.....a bed all to myself....FINALLY!!!!

New Saturday game....

Go check out what Show My Face Is Starting....could be interesting!!!

Six word Saturday you are supposed to tell a story or describe your life in six words...i can be windy sometimes so this could be a challlenge!!

Here goes!

Where is the freaking snow storm?

Daughters, dads and step moms....oh my!

Why can't we all just get along?

My oldest daughter, who is at her dads this week, (we have shared parenting, week on week off) calls me crying, from a number I don't know...."can you come pick me up?" Now i am freaking out, "where are you?!" she rattles someones name off that i don't know...apparently her and the step mom had words, the dad is at work, and the step mom took the phone with her when shand left...that was the jist of it. Immediately I am fuming of course. For one, don't leave my daughter at home alone with NO freaking phone, we have already been over this. Two...this has been going on now for several weeks, the arguing with the step mom, daughter calls me crying, the dad and I get into it because i am pissed that the step mom made MY daughter cry yet again....so now the dad is on his way home from work after only being there for 2 of his 12 hour shift.....am i glad i am here at MY house? ABSOLUTELY!!!

Why can't step moms, step dads, step kids, moms, dads, brothers, sisters all just get along? Why does everything have to be an argument?

13 year olds and step mom's just don't get along...don't you get it step mom? So just back off for a minute and let things cool off, stop stirring the pot...it will all settle down...she will have someone else to "not like" in a couple of weeks...she is a teenager..."everyone is doin' it"!!

For once I feel like I am the parent with no issues!! Excuse me while I go bask for alittle bit! (and wait for the dad to call me)

I hope everyone else is having a great evening as well!!

Think Thin Thursday

My goal for the week is to drink at least 32 oz of water a day....I am ashamed to admit it....but I am not sure when the last time I drank ANY water was......

HORRIBLE I KNOW!

Wordless Wednesday

....only I can't keep it totally wordless for fear that children services may come after me!! This happened when she collided with a boy's head at school almost 2 years ago!! I cried....she cried....it was terrible!

she was smiling becasue it was still numb

with my sister....with a great big shiner!!!

Obviously I got my computer back....corrupt operating system...go figure!!

Tuesday's Tribute

I almost didn't make it to the First Tuesday Tribute. My computer decided to take a crap last night...so it is being repaired today. I had to go to a meeting out of town for work this morning...so I am just now getting here...talk about withdrawals! I haven't got to catch up on everyone's blogs yet, so hopefully I am on the right track with my tribute....if not...better luck next week!!

My Tribute is dedicated to.....

My post here from yesterday...I know not much effort, but with no home computer and actually having work to be done here at work...(i really don't know who they think they are, taking up my time working instead of blogging). Besides....i still can't believe it, Job title: Back up killer.....i will never in a million years forget this dude!!

I promise to put more effort forth next week!

Not for the Weak Stomachs

I just HAD to blog about this...maybe some of you have heard of this profession...but in the 10+ years or so that I have been interviewing people for jobs, I have NEVER heard of this. I work for a temp agency and I just had a guy come in to fill out an application. He was formerly a tattoo artist and when I asked him one of our routine questions, about his background he said, "I know it is hard to believe a tattoo artist with a clean background, huh?" We laughed about it and talked about some people we new mutally who are now in prison that used to be tattoo artists. Then I looked over the rest of his application. I come across him most previous job title, " Back up killer"....you can imagine the look on my face!!
Do any of you know what his previous job would have been?
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.......he was a Chicken Killer...not "THE " killer...but the back up killer....lol. He then went into detail about his job....wow...that is ONE job I will never wish upon anyone! Do you all know how this is done? I will spare you the details...but if for some reason you are interested let me know and I will share with you what he shared with me....I will never look at Chickens the same!!

Not Me Monday!

Check out who came home at McKmama's house!! Also be sure to check out.......

• I 'did not' give a quiet sigh of relief when i dropped the girls off at their dad's yesterday...a week to myself...that would just be terrible and alittle selfish...even though Christmas break does go a long way!!!
• I 'did not' eat a Quarter pounder from Mc Donald's last night even though I am trying not to eat junk food.
• I 'did not' cry at the drop of a pin yesterday several times all day long...let's hope for a better day today
• I 'did not' get to work 2 minutes before I needed to be there this morning...Monday of all days!!
• I 'did not' play Canasta AGAIN too much this weekend!
• And once again.... I did NOT do this while I was at work!!

Everyone have a great Monday!!!!

Life

This post may not be one you want to read, it is just basically for me to try to clear my mind and get my feelings out there. Why is it every time you think you know you are making a decision that is best for everyone involved, you feel like crap? I have been married two times,I have been in nothing but "not so great" relationships. I have finally made a decision that I am do not want to live like I am living anymore. It isn't good for my daughters and it isn't good for me. I feel good about the decision that I have made 99% of the time. I am excited about it. It may involve things that I don't want to do, i.e. moving yet again, readjusting to a new place and schedule again....but I am for the most part excited. Relieved to be on my own, with just my girls and I. I could name off 50 reasons why I don't want to be in the relationship that I just ended and maybe 5 reasons to stay in it.....but I still feel like complete shit. I know I broke somebody's heart and I know that he thought he made me happy....and for that I am truly sorry.
For so long I have thought that I "needed" someone. I know now that I don't. I make decent money, I have my daughters, I have my family, I have a house over my head and a car to get me around....would companionship be nice? Sure it would...but why bother? Why does it always have to come with a price to pay? Why can't I get lucky and find someone like my dad...or my brother in law? Someone who doesn't have issues? Someone who has self respect and good family values? Someone who has already grown up? Someone who doesn't need to be taken care of?
If you are still reading....I am sorry. I just had to get some things off of my chest. I know I am making the right decision and I know that I need this alone time....I just don't like someone making me feel like a horrible person for something that I know I need and want.

I am going to go over to my friend Kim's on Thursday. Her son has left to go to Iraq and we are just going to have a vent and gab session and showing her some things about blogging...she may be sorry by the time I get done!! I think I really need it though! lol

On a lighter note. Friday I took the girls to see Bedtime Stories...good movie, I love Adam Sandler...and even more so since he is a father. Then the girls had mall gift cards from Christmas that were burning holes in their pockets. So they, well I should say the youngest, "Drama Queen", spent hers all up. The oldest, "Teenager Attitude", didn't spend a dime of hers. Picked things up, put them down....at least she got her father's thrifty spending habit....the youngest on the other hand I am afraid will be like her mother with money....loves to spend, although I will say, she is a bargain hunter looking to see how she can get more for her money.

This is her with a couple of her purchases...she loves glasses, so she got a fake pair

she also bought a couple of books and some toe rings and slippers....she was sad after she spent it all......isn't that the way it always is?

Something new!!

halftime lessons: Tuesday's Tribute - It's time to give back.
Check out what they are doing now!!


Yet Another Jay and Deb Production.

Think Thin Thursday

My resolution this year?

To be around people that bring out the best in me. I have spent WAY too much time being the person who thinks she needs someone.....I have realized that I don't need anyone...I am OK on my own, and I don't need someone who needs to be fixed....So 2009 is going to be about focusing on Angie and the kids.

Of course I have others, but those are like always...losing weight, for that I am going to join THE Not-So-Blog Blog over here for Think Thin Thursday....check it out!

My goal for this week: Not to eat any junk!

New Years Questionairre

Playing along with My Side of The Story...thought it would be fun...noting else to do!

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before? gained too much weight all in ONE year!!!
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I am sure I made one...or more and broke just as many!! Don;t you have to make resolutions? lol
3. Do you plan on having a child? I haev all i need thank you!!
4. Did anyone close to you give birth? nope
5. Did anyone close to you die? not this year!
6. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 2008? lol...hopefully in smaller clothes!
7. What countries did you visit? none
8. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? $$$$$$$$$$$
9. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? none that I can think of off the top of my head....hence...welcome 2009!!
10. What was your biggest achievement of the year? anotehr year of raising my children successfully
11. What was your biggest failure? my relationship I would have to say
12. Did you suffer illness or injury? i suffer back pain everyday....but nothing new
13. What was the best thing you bought? Wii
14. Whose behavior merited celebration? George W Bush....JOKING!!!!
15. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? do i really have to answer that out loud? lol
16. Where did most of your money go? GASOLINE
17. Will you be moving? lol...you really don't know me very well do you? I am sure i will be!
18. What did you get really, really, really excited about? my raise
20. Compared to this time last year, are you:a) happier or sadder?b) thinner or fatter?c) richer or poorer? a) same b) fatter by far!!! c)poorer
21. What do you wish you’d done more of? saved money
22. What do you wish you’d done less of? spend money
23. How did you spend Christmas? with my wonderful family!
24. Did you fall in love in 2008? In and out as a mater of fact
25. What was your favorite TV program? Any reality ...probably Survivor
26. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? Hate is an awfully strong word...but no
27. What was the best book you read? Anything by eg Cabot
28. What was your greatest musical discovery? Micheal Buble
29. What did you want and get? Wii
30. What did you want and not get? the lottery!!!
31. What was your favorite film of this year? That is a tough one....I will get back to you on that one!
32. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i turned 36 and did nothing...
33. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Winning the lottery
34. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? bigger!! lol
35. What kept you sane? never claimed I was sane!!!
36. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Orlanodo Bloom
37. What political issue stirred you the most? The Presidential Election
38. Who did you miss? My sister and her family
39. Who was the best new person you met? All of you guys!!
40. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. I am OK all by myself!!!!!
41. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year..... If I could turn back time....

Happy 2009

Happy New Year to all my family and friends!!