Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Ups & Downs of Life

My, I could probably write a book or be a Lifetime movie!!
I think I was lost for a long time. That is the only way to explain it. I wasn't raised the wrong way, I didn't have a bad childhood, I had a great family life, very close and very involved, great siblings, great memories....the only thing I can conclude was that I was lost!!
I feel like I have gotten a second chance at life. I have two great kids...most of the time. I have an awesome family and a wonderful man. I am not going to disappoint any of them! The past is the past and although some mistakes are hard to forgive myself for I am trying. If it wasn't for my family or my girls I don't know where I would be.
There were times when I put myself first ALL the time. Selfishness...what an awful trait to have. I would like to say that I have finally outgrown that. If I can make my girls remember one thing in life it will be, don't be could ruin you!
I hope my kids can look back at their childhood and say that is was as good as mine was. I have the best childhood memories! My mom and dad were/are the best parents anyone could ever ask for. Stern but loving...very loving. Granted my parents have been married for 30+ (almost 40) years, and I am girls have adapted and they have overcome alot! This used to worry me, but seeing them growing up as loving, happy, smart girls...I am ok with it now.
All I want now is to settle in a house that they can call home, no more moving, and make the best of every minute of the rest of their lives. I know the rest will fall into place from there.
Thank you to everyone who has endured the hard times and the pain, the highs and the lows in my life, and the ones who will be there until the end!! I love you guys and honestly don't know where I would be without you. Especially my mom and dad!! Here is to a new life, I am finally loving myself!!


Lori said...

welcome to blogspot! you will love it!

And your entry...made me cry! I love you, and even though I am not there, please know I am proud of you!
Love your little sister, Lori

kimber p said...

You're one of the funniest, sweetest women I know. I know we don't talk as often as we should, because I do consider you to be a very good friend of mine. You and your family deserve so much happiness..xoxoo